i cried for 2 hours this morning. it started off as a horrible day. rain, humidity, and my depression ran deep. cleaned stalls. went for an hour long run with the dog and pushed out a final 6 minute mile. i think i almost killed the dog, but he was wagging his tail the entire time.

went to yoga with Gianna. just one hour there completly cleanses my sorrow, erases the horrible images in my mind, loosens the tension in my body, and clears up my chronic headache. i leave and the day just has to keep moving. must keep moving. if i stop the whole world crashes. that's fucking inertia for you.

picked up some fixings for the bbq with dad. went to home depot to pick out paint for my fixtures and chair. now im off to ride my horse and clip them.

mom called from VA. Rodney wants us to buy Livewire LP for a spec horse.

i want to be on a mountain. in my tent.